regret vs. regret not

All this time, i have this conscious effort to regret not. i am one of those people who believes that everything happens for a reason. life is indeed a process that we must all go through. there will be good times as there will be topsy-turvy situations . there will be good choices as there will be bad ones. we are capable of making the best decision as we are also capable of making the poorest judgement. and nobody is an exception. in that whole process.. we learn. and that’s something we shouldn’t regret. 

and so may i ask, why do i still have sleepless nights? why do i caught myself staring blankly at the wall? why am i still waiting for something? why am i stranded to some desert place i never wanted to be in? why are these questions still popping into my head when supposedly i am already convinced that i shouldn’t regret after all?

i guess.. even if we try our very best not to regret anything, we will never succeed because likewise it’s part of a process we just have to go through. Regretting i guess is actually admitting to ourselves that something did go wrong and in that manner we will be able to prevent making the same mistake again. yes, we will not be able to turn back times but we are masters of our fate. We are capable of changing it.

so yes, i do regret and i do regret a lot of things and now i am trying to change my fate and i promise myself that i will never go through the same sh*t again… ever.